Saturday 30 December 2006

My friends, I'm talking to you

- x-
You were visibly shaken. I have never seen you in this state before. The closest was when you were drained by work. But even then, you were filled with hope. I know what you are going through because I’ve been there too. I feel so useless that I’m not in a position to render you with any sort of practical assistance. All I can do is to provide you with a listening ear. But you know what? I really feel the situation will turn out just fine. By then, I’m sure you would be back to your old self. Meanwhile, don’t lose heart and don’t lose your belief in mankind. Please always keep in mind you have your folks and family. And you have me. I will always be by your side. This you must believe.
- x-
I believe you have thought more than twice before taking the risk. Though I may not do the same if I were to be in your shoes, I fully support you and your decision. As a matter of fact, I will support all your decisions because I truly believe you know what you are doing. I will only point out to you areas where I think you will need to analyse deeper. This, I will always do for as long as I retain my sanity.
- x-
You have to be steadfast in your decision. I know it’s tough. I know you will face disapproval and even being snickered at. This I can guarantee. But if you are true to yourself and you know what you want, fear not. Remember, you live for yourself. Sometimes, you only need to be happy. The rest is secondary.
- x-
Depression. I didn’t know you were depressed. I must admit it caught me by surprise. Why didn’t you let me know earlier? You know you can always call me. I may be very busy but I will always have time for my friends. Especially close friends like you. Find out the source and sort it out quickly. I will help you if you let me in. But before that, I want you to know you will always have your good friends and buddies around you to support you and love you. Most importantly, your family. No stress really, because you deserve it.
- x-
You are busy. But I’m grateful you have time for me. I know I have changed over the years. I know I have disappointed and might have shocked you with the changes in me. But trust me. I’m still myself since the first day you saw me on that fateful island on which you often had fever. There are things I want to share with you but I just didn’t. Though we barely talk deep, I feel we understand each other a lot. Before I have the chance to go beyond where we are today, I hope you can keep your faith in whatever you do. You have broken away from it once so I don’t think you should break away from it this time. It’s tough but it will certainly be worth the while.
- x-
Hey you! Yes you there! Don’t look away! It’s your turn. Yes, I’m talking to you! Don’t always look away. Be brave and talk your heart out. You must realize that while sometimes it’s good not to reveal too much, it’s important to share your thoughts too. If you want no more regrets, be bold and do whatever you want to do/say. You are entitled to it. I’m sure you can do it. Now look at me. Oh yes, that’s better. Keep it up, ok?
- x-
It has been more than a year. I do still remember you. I do still miss you. I heard you do not remember some of the things you have been through and I believe you have forgotten your friends. Or at least I’m sure you have forgotten me because it has been a long time since you wanted to meet me. But that’s really ok. I can fully understand. Go meet whoever you want to meet. Remember to think for youself too, ok?
- x-

2 Comments:

Blogger I, Cactus said...

dear buddy,
one of the best things that happened to me in Uni was to be get to know you.

Since then, you have always been there for me, rain or shine.

You share my laughter, my pain and will always kick me back to reality if i am out of sync.

I am sorry that we've not been meeting up in '06. But then again great friendships don't need constant gathering right?

Regardless, thanks for being you and being there for your friends.

2 January 2007 at 22:23  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

there is this old saying.... when you didn't "meet" him it means he has found himself a good place! i have not seen him for so long, so i believe in this saying.

-cs

3 January 2007 at 17:35  

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